Thankful.

As I'm sitting on my bed, listening to Christmas music and looking through old cards, some things began to skip around in my mind...

I've been feeling kind of down lately with college coming up and some other things. I've been having body issues (insecurities and such) and have been doubting myself way too much. This usually happens when I start feeling lonely and thinking no one really cares to be around me. The sunshine begins to dim and I just feel, for lack of a better word, poopy. 

But, you know what?

As I was looking through graduation cards and other old cards, I realized, I am not alone. I was rereading all of these thoughtful, loving words that my family, friends, and church family took the time to write for me, and it nearly brought tears to my eyes. The fact that y'all sat down and wrote these things out and took the time to send a card or say a kind word just means heaps to me. I can hardly explain how happy it makes me feel. I hope you all realize that I keep everything that is sent to me, cards, notes, whatever, I put them all in a box and reread them often. I cherish every thing written, down the the last stroke of the pen. 

That's one thing I love about cards: someone took the time to write something down, slap a stamp on that bad boy, and mail it to you. There is so much thought in cards and it just, I wish I was more eloquent with my words so I could explain this better. Cards just make me smile SO much. That's why I love making cards and sending them to people, I know how they make me feel, so I'm hoping by sending one others will have that same joyous feeling. 

I know this was a bit of a roundabout way of saying this, but I am so thankful for all of you. I'm thankful for your love, your encouragement, your belief in me, and even your interest in reading my poorly-put together blog. Every single one of you have impacted me and I am forever grateful. Thank you for your support of me through this rocky stage in my life, where I'm beginning to find myself and start writing a brand new chapter. I seriously do love you all, even if I've only known you for a short time or for a long time. I know I sound redundant but I would bake all of you cookies and go deliver them to your house if I knew how to bake and had all of your addresses.

I hope I continue to make you all proud and I thank God for you every single day. 

-Rachel xx

Enjoy a gif of the lovely Harry Styles blowing you all a kiss.