Poetry.

I recently made a few poetry books to sell at an art show and realized that some of these poems I've never shared before. I'd like to share them with you!

Falling: Poetry About the Euphoric Feeling of Falling in Love

Hand Holding 12-2-15
A simple action
It holds so much meaning
it's either a spontaneous grab
the protective grip
or the gradual embrace 
maybe all three
I yearn for that feeling
the bubbly feeling slowly surfacing
then it all explodes

damp palms
too anxious to be held
yet constantly craving contact
as eyes wander
trying to find yours
my hands vacant in my lap
twirling silver bands
until my fingers burn
your hands, so lovely
crafted by Michelangelo himself
mine dull in comparison
the clock spins as I wait
my hands still looking for you 
I twirl the silver bands
I look over my shoulder
a warm presence encompasses me
my worn hands no longer vacant 
the spaces in between are filled
a gentle squeeze 
a simple action
it holds so much meaning
it's all three

Smile 12-18-15
In front of everyone
I exposed my heart
Voice like water boiling
Slow then excited
Trying to make eye contact
But repeatedly shying away
I continued revealing my heart
I saw you looking at me
Almost gazing at me
The look on your face, I'll never forget
The boiling water overflowed
I didn't want to clean it up
you were still sitting there
I said how I wished someone would look at me
like William looks at Penny Lane
It was almost as if it came true
No one has ever smiled at me like that
or looked at me like that
There I was exposing my heart
And you there, looking at me
It was like I was Penny Lane
and you were William 

Untitled 3-30-16
A week
that's all it's been

An innocent message
that's all it's been

A belly of butterflies
that's all it's been

A slew of lengthy messages
that's all it's been

An anxious clench of hands
that's all it's been

A week
a thunderous heartbeat
that's all it's been

Untitled 6-6-16
I don't know how to explain
words seem inadequate
I will try my best

The pastures I gaze at
as my dad drives over the hills
the eternity of the grass
the bumpiness of the cement road
that peace, that comfort
is synonymous with you

But just as I settle in
I close my eyes and exhale
my eyes open
grass and hills are replaced with brick and noise
my peace, my comfort
is waving goodbye


Realization: Poetry About Moments When I Had a Change of Heart

Like a Cement Block 11-16-15
I woke up with clouded thoughts
I'm not sure if I slept through the night

It was one of those sleeps
where I closed my eyes and a second later I awoke

I prayed and prayed
I was thirsty for a minute of serene sleep

It felt like a cement block was encompassing me
I tried to extend my arms but got nowhere

I finally closed my eyes
the cement prison fizzled away

My heart finally got to sit still
then the alarm rang

B. (abbreviated) 11-22-15
I give out my heart so freely
yet no one notices
especially you

I really thought you were the one
maybe you feel the same?
I guess not

I tried my very best
I'm always so shy
aren't you?

I thought you were my future
all the signs seemed to be there
but not to you

I thought you were my future 
but then I got the news
it wasn't me

I still hope one day these feelings will be true for you, too. But I know I'm no longer in your crosshairs, if I ever was.

You Are a Music Box 11-27-15
So much is going on
and you don't quite understand
but you are a music box
you are held in His hands

You think that you are tarnished 
and you can't be cleaned
but you are a music box
He has all that you need

You feel that you aren't cared about
and you have become invisible 
but you are a music box
your music is irreplaceable 

You feel misunderstood
and all you want to do is make people smile
but you are a music box
don't you know you are so worthwhile?

You feel so discouraged 
and your winder is broken
but you are a music box
for your words are well spoken 

My child, your music is beautiful
and without you life would be dull
you are a music box
you make my life full

The Girl in the Stupid Denim Jacket 7-29-16
I had stars in my eyes
yours were just a meaningless reflection of mine 

Warm: Poetry About Feelings of Overwhelming Peace & Comfort

Thank You Part 2 (abbreviated) 12-2-15
I never would've thought 
one day we'd become close
those jokes and looks
turned into a friendship

The first awkward encounter
the two afternoons a week
my nervous laughter
turned into a friendship

Two afternoons became every day
the nerves disappeared 
the multiplied laughs
turned into a friendship

You laugh at me
and I laugh at you
so many laughing fits 
turned into a friendship

The subtle compliments
saturated in sincerity 
and sprinkled with trust
turned into a friendship

I needed an ear to hear me
you were there
those comforting words
turned into a friendship

You showed me 
what a true friend was
and I am so glad
we turned into a friendship

Steak, Grits, & Biscuits 12-11-15
Surrounded by the three I love most
I pulled up a chair
My eyes danced around the table
I put mountains on my plate
unsure at first, then content
I sliced it, dipped it, perfect!
Slowly absorbing the taste 
The conversation continued
But I suddenly heard none of it
My mind zeroed on my plate
Hundreds of memories flooded the room
My heart was shining like the sun
And as warm as the sunset
Millions of thoughts cleared
Only one thing was on my mind
I am exactly where I am supposed to be

Bathtime 12-21-15
The warm water engulfs 
it's still, then moves as I breathe 
like little angel kisses
the epidermis, like sweet, fragrant moss

Kind Eyes 4-19-16
Down you swooped 
Carefully grabbing me
in a moment of surprise

My hope was leaving
but then you came
my hope ran back

Oh how my heart was bursting!
was this even real?!
it was to be a joke

days passed and there you were
pointing my hope back to me
with that gentle smile and kind eyes


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I have a book full of so many more, I may post more in the near future. <3